Even though I haven't taken anything to far, I think you can say that lately I've reached rock bottom. The last couple of weeks have just been a blur. Between working and going to school, the only other thing I've really been doing is using substances to fill some void in my life. I'm not quite sure what that void is, but I know one thing, that I haven't been as close to God lately. It's time for a change, and a fresh start. I need to start working on what I want to do with my life and set up some sort of normalcy in my life.
Ahh I hate having insomnia. I think so much when I'm trying to sleep, and that is sometimes good, but usually it is extremely bad. It sometimes keeps me awake when I really need to sleep. But sometimes I come to really cool revelations about myself.
One thing I hate is that I haven't talked to so many people in such a long time. There's tons of old best friends and people that I care(d) about that I haven't spoken to in forever. Up until the past couple of nights, none of that even mattered to me at all. I haven't tried to talk to anyone, and when I do, I don't put any effort into it. I need to work on this.
So this is it. I'm putting a lot of things behind me tonight. Going to try and start new relationships and start rekindling some old relationships. I'm going to quit trying to fill some void in my life and start trying to get close to God again. It would help if you guys prayed for me.
-Love,
Morgan.
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